Why I am no longer trying to buy a PS5

Hey, Gamers! So the PS5 came out in November 2020 and we have been trying to get it ever since then, really. We’ve had absolutely no luck, like a lot of people. With our current PlayStation being around 5 or 6 years old, it’s not handling much without deciding it wants to emit the noise of about five planes. To be honest, I think that’s the main reason we wanted the PS5 in the first place.

A bit of backstory: between me and my partner, we have the PS2, PS3 and PS4 (as well as the Xbox 360, the Wii and several DS brand consoles). My partner hates the thought of throwing away old consoles, even if we sold them. I think it’s a bit more special with the PS4 because it was the first console that was technically ours so it means more to both of us. So we were never going to get rid of the PS4. We were just going to move it downstairs, and then we would be able to play the JoJo game together.

So we get paid 3 times a year. September, January and April. When we couldn’t get it in November, I was like “you know what, it’s fine, we’ll get it for second Christmas”… so we made plans and they did not work out. And about two weeks ago now, we decided to stop trying to get it.

We had lost sleep over the PS5. We never turned our laptops off because we had multiple stock pages open (just in case one didn’t work). I remember doing an assignment with extra tabs open was hell, because I was so scared that I was going to close one. Neither of us was sleeping right, just in case an alarm didn’t wake us or something. On nights when it was reported to have stock, I would set alarms for every half an hour. It was all we could think about.

And obviously, that isn’t healthy. I think I realised it when the Smith’s stock came in and we both had it in our baskets (just in case) and then… it was just gone. We were seconds too late.

I came to the conclusion that… in reality, there’s nothing wrong with the PS4. And we’ll get the PS5 when we get it. I told Josh that I’ll try to get it for his birthday in July, but I’m not going to obsess over it again. At the end of the day, things will come in stock normally soon. We’re in the middle of a pandemic. And to be perfectly honest, I would much rather a little kid who didn’t get a Christmas present have it instead of us.

This was actually a huge decision for us to make because usually when we make plans, there’s little space for them to go wrong. After all, we’re both autistic and this meant a lot to us both. But losing sleep, crying until I get migraines, none of that is okay. It’ll happen when it’ll happen, and finally deciding to close the tabs and give our laptops a break was a huge relief for both of us.

If you’re one of the people who are still looking for a PS5, just know that you will get it at some point. We are in the middle of a global pandemic and when that ends (I know it feels like it won’t but it can’t last forever), things will be able to happen so much faster. And if you want to give up, for now, that’s okay too. Your health is much more important than the PS5, coming from a gaming blogger.

That being said, I hope you’re all staying safe and are well. I’ll see you in the next post. Don’t forget to like, follow and comment if you feel this way too!

Published by eleanorreeswriting

Hi, I am an autistic gamer in my 20's who loves to share my experiences and thoughts about games, characters and everything about gaming.

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